15-1-24

​今天我在微博上发了一篇关于现代哲学的牢骚，如往常一样没有人点赞，我甚至自己都觉得尴尬，因为它是那样地不合时宜。恰好一个F人up主也发了一篇文章，我就点进去深入观察了一下，我发现她最显著的特点，或许也是她成功的必要特质之一就是总是在说“我”的故事，“我”的感悟，她总是确保所有的对话一定都是以“我”为主语或者是默认以“我”为主语的，我恍然大悟。这就是为什么没人理我发的东西，我总是以东西、物体、事件之类的“东西”作为主语。这些“东西”作为主语的话或许对这些“东西”了解颇深的人才能够懂我所说的是什么。但是如果是“我”作为主语的话那所有人就都能够共情和理解了。

这种以“东西”作为主语的习惯贯穿我所有的交流，实在是很奇葩。仿佛我的世界一直以来是以外部的客体作为中心而存在的。怪不得我在网上发的东西大多数没人鸟，因为它们根本都不是给人看的！更像是给“机器”或者是“真理”看的！

现在想起来实在是太过于滑稽。一个和灵魂打交道的艺术人，居然不是以“我”为主语在说话而是一直在讲“东西”。我一直在说拒绝被物化，但是居然我自己早就已经把自己物化了。当然也不能完全怪我，我迄今为止上的一直都是把人当成工具人来培养的美式设计学校。

​滑稽，太滑稽。

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本来我以为艺术是可以客观存在的，但是现在看来，客观上的艺术品可能根本就不成立。我们所以为的客观上可以被评判的艺术只是专业人士和工业化的偏见。


19-1-24

People on the internet seems to assume artworks or pictures or information of any regard just comes out of nowhere, they just exist.

Unless it's made aware to them deliberately that someone made them or it's assumed stuff just exists like a part of nature. 

The recognition of someone is an important factor in recognizing there is an artist. 

So, I need to make myself visible up front?

(I can already see how this can be abused, wait, ppl are already abusing them anyway, unless for nerds like me, that something so obvious like this is so unintuitive.

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I guess different sensory information just enters different regions of the brain, and when a viewer is in a passive receiving mode there just isn't effort put into transferring data between different regions. 

So, multi-sensory seems to be critical for the formation of a substantial impression.

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So in the online environment, everything is information then? 

Art, artist, everything. 

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On an interesting note, if I'm sitting in public spaces the work I make will be much more conventional, but perhaps of more generalizability, but the total autonomy of creative freedom is not expressible. It just felt wrong to be super strange and in one's own head space in public, even though my poses will be the same - sitting at the computer not saying a word. That has to do with the psyche in some way. 

This also kind of explains, why artists in shared studios tend to create more benign artworks.

Expectations of the public and surroundings are perhaps automatically in functions that could take a psychopath to turn that off.

​So people are super engrossed with the public and perhaps don't even feel that their creative freedom has been taken away because the awareness of the public perception can be so automatic.